went downstairs to exchange x'mas present with Teresa this afternoon. it's drizzling. so managed to stand under the rain awhile. went home then. cried a few times today. i dunno what happen to you. maybe you have no feelings for me anymore. i just wanna tell you. i miss you. miss your everything. it's a torture everyday. and i hate staying at home. i'm getting depression soon.. aix. so i'm escaping the moments i'm alone at home. i'm afraid i might just slash my wrist again. i dunno what to do now. i just need someone to be by my side. so that i could hug & cry and not putting on a mask.
after that msg you sent me, i've decided not to call/sms you anymore.. not at all. afterall, i realise i'm too dumb. maybe i'm not the person you're finding bahs. all the best then. i still love you deeply.
